Does it matter if it is that way?

Even if I kissed him before I really really missed him would he then stay a while longer or promise to come back? Would the soft intensity of his touch feel the same?

Evermore will he be a part of me in every letter of the alphabet and inside every feeling that I experience and those who know how to listen will understand the same but it doesn’t matter if they know that is why my very first thought is the ticket to freedom(his or mine? I do not know . . .) and he doesn’t have to know that thought because what holds together our common invisible reality is the very answer of the unspoken question: Does it matter if it is that way?